Me and my sister stayed up almost the whole night tonight.
Talking about everything.
She told me about all different descisions she had made in her life.

And everything she said reminded me of that you have to stay true to yourself. And to everyone out there who deserves you and your love.



Soundtrack to my life atm:

B.C - to love somebody
SP - stand inside your love
Death cab for cutie - soul meets body

There was a guy at work today, who looked a lot like Billy.
I couldn't help staring....

´

i wanna see the pumpkins now. now. now...

TODAY WE HEAD IT OF TO ARVIKAFESTIVALEN!!
YEEEEEEEZZ!

smk, kate nash, kent, the kooks, AHHH!

summersummer.
Well, the weather could have been better at the moment.
But you know honestly? i don't care.
Life feels great.
Don't wanna change a thing.

Yesterday, i got a textmessage from my boyfriend saying "i'm watching kent right now. "
(kent is one of the biggest rockbands here in Sweden. or purhaps, THE biggest)
and i've listen to them as long as i've listen to the pumpkins.
For about 7 years now.
And they've played SO MANY SHOWS HERE!, still, i haven't seen them yet.
so when i got that message my heart and mind was like nonono...
but.. on the other side.. the positive thing is that: I'LL SEE THEM NEXT WEEK!
CAN'T WAIT!


i just wish pumpkins could play the same night..


http://youtube.com/watch?v=4F9OQb8l8S8&feature=related (you just have to watch it. kent.)

my life's perfect at the moment.
and that's why i'm scared.

"No one comes here to return
You always put yourself first, no one else
A simple rule

Full circle again at Stockholm central station
In the big bad city, oh nowhere else
Can you be all alone like just here

The ice at Riddarfjärden cracks like guns
Blue lights on a brick wall, Spring is here
You stand in a hall of mirrors with a baseball bat
Out there waits the night for the town that will implode

I am here for you
I am here for you

They come home like ghosts returning
You learn to live alone with yourself, oh no one else
And that's the whole truth

No one on the road only dead badgers
In a small sleepy town oh nowhere else
Can you be alone like just here

The last bus in the rain and you have to walk
Like a plague through the youth gangs, acne attacks
People begin to fight in the crowds and the weekend explodes

I am here for you
I am here for you
I am here for you
I am here for you"

don't you ever loose you dreams, hope and your faith.

never

i know i suck on updating... SORRY!!!
please don't forget me!
i'm trying my best!
don't have sooo much spare time sitting here you see.

i want to write something, but, this might sound stupid but i can't find inspiration when i'm happy. buhuu... we'll i shouldn't complain anyway!

it's the second time this week i have a billydream... he was so beautiful. i promise you.



hugs and love!

I'm so busy now
sorry folks! miss you ...

hugs and love to you all so long

(it's such a luck that i have my ipod and SP to help me survive some of these days.. )

it's my birthday today! hurray!
17 years old now.. hmmm. just let me get 18 so i can get my SPtattoo!

we celebrated me last night, how i love my sisters. the best!
and tonight my best friend's coming over with an amazing cake!

hope you guys doing well! see ya!

i feel like a retard sometimes but, every day, this thought hits me. this crazy thought .. that ..

what would i do if Billy would get on the buss? what would i say? i know it'll never happen but .. then i just sit there..thinking.. now, what's a good start. like, "hiii Billlleeeaay! i just wanted to thank you for saving my life. " nono NO! never ever.
the fact is... i don't know

a thank you..it feels...so small? like. no. that's not the right word.

well, i have to figure it out anyway.
maybe i'll get the chance one day

i want back to SP.
i want back to the night when i felt immortal.


well, one thing i know for sure, my love for SP has always been and will always be immortal.

AHHH HOW I LOVE CHERUB ROCK!!! there's NOTHING that compares to the feeling of listening to SP a sunny day. (or a grey) well, there's nothing that compares to SP.

i've found out what matters in life. and that what you look like is such a small part of it.

i'm so happy!

- hear from you soon again -

and don't forget: peace love and understanding!!!