Wandered through the woods
Picking sage
The heavens sprinkled tears
and I felt age
Listen to the silence of the stones
The river bed of drought
Desolate
like the love in me
And I swam with the dragonflies
waded into the depths of your eyes
Will you wash all your sin in me?
Will you let me be the dream catcher
to all your fears?
I'm starting to believe
But all the blood from my past
is smeared on my walls
Pictures of mistakes
engraved
permanent
Not one hand to wave me goodbye
Not one
to kiss away the reasons I lie.
A constructed reality
makes all thats unreal: definate.
This is how I decieve my heart.
This is how I linger.
Constant lipstick stained sleeves
Dancing in the crowd.
fvck with me.
I feel my bones crack
and my muscles tighten.
All I have for wings
is flowers.

(1)

LISTEN TO THE QUIET

YESTERDAY, YOU AND I TRAVELED TOGETHER ON A VOYAGE THROUGH TIME.
AND SHARED IN THE CREATION OF ONE MIND FROM TWO
FOR ONE BRIEF MOMENT WE LIVED
AND UNDERSTOOD WHY OUR HEARTS, BOUND TOGETHER AS ONE
NOT BY CHAINS BUT BY LOVE
HOW MUCH WE BOTH HAVE LEARNED

AS WE LISTENED TO THE QUIET.



(2)

WARMTH IS NOT FARTHEREST AWAY ON WINTER DAYS
BECAUSE EVEN SUMMER DAYS CAN BE COLD
WINTER IS ONLY AN EMOTIONAL SEASON CALLED LONELINESS
IF I HAD ONE WISH
I'D WISH THAT THE WARMTH OF MY THOUGHTS WOULD MAKE FOR YOU A SUMMER DAY


(3)
smiling is someones way of making warm music
quietness is found with a symphony of smiles and tears
a thoughful concert
-warm-
and free of charge


(4)
ODESSA FLIES ON WINGS OF UNSPOKEN WORDS
TO SECRET PLACES IN MOUNTAINS FILLED WITH GOLDEN SUMMERS
TRAVELLING LIKE THE WIND ON FEATHERED CHARIOTS
OR SILKEN MOONS THAT STEAL ACROSS THE SILENT NIGHT
SHE CARRIES THE MYTERY OF WINDING RIVERS
AND DIAMOND LAKES ON DISTANT STARS
ODESSA COME SOFTLY BUT STAYS FOREVER
TO SHARE THE LOVE OF HER AGELESS TIME
AND SPEAK THE MUSIC THAT STRIKES THE CHORDS OF TRUTH
IN ALL THE HEARTS OF ALL THE SOULS
ODESSA WITH EYES THAT SHINE OF FIRE
THAT SEE PAST THE GUIDE OF MAN'S MINDS
TO VIEW THE WORLD IN LOVE
AND COMPASSION FOR THE BLINDNESS OF HER BROTHER
ODESSA COMES IN THE BLOOMING OF EARLY AGING APPLE ORCHARDS
OR IN THE DARKNESS OF MORNING WALKS ON GLISTENING BEACHES
SHE SINGS IN SILENCE
HER SOULS' SWEET SONG
AND IN THE SILENCE OF THIS UNFORGOTTEN MOMENT
BETWEEN THE CRASING OF WAVES AND FLIKERING CANDLES OF THIS WORLD
LISTEN- TO THE VOICED OF THAT HEAVENLY KIND
THAT SINGS FROM THE HEART OF ODESSA





THE IMPERSONAL LIFE

To you who read, I speak.

To you, who, through long years and much running to and fro, have been eagerly seeking, in books and teachings, in philosophy and religion, for you know not what ---Truth, Happiness, Freedom, God;

To you whose Soul is weary and discouraged and almost destitute of hope;

To you, who many times have obtained a glimpse of that "Truth" only to find, when you followed and tried to reach it, that it disappeared in the beyond, and was but the mirage of the desert;

To you, who thought you had found it in some great teacher, who was perhaps the acknowledged head of some Society, Fraternity or Religion, and who appeared to you to be a "Master," so marvelous was the wisdom he taught and the works he performed; -- only to awaken later to the realization that that "Master" was but a human personality, with faults and weaknesses, and secret sins, the same as you, even though that personality may have been a channel through which were voiced many beautiful teachings, which seemed to you the highest "Truth;"

And here you are, Soul aweary and enhungered, and not knowing where to turn ---

To you, I AM come.

Likewise to you, who have begun to feel the presence of that "Truth" within your Soul, and seek the confirmation of that which of late has been vaguely struggling for living expression within;

Yes, to all you who hunger for the true "Bread of Life," I AM come.

Are you ready to partake?

If so, then arouse yourself. Sit up. Still your human mind and follow closely My Word herein spoken. Or you will turn away disappointed once more, with the aching hunger still in your heart.

I!

Who am I? ---

I, Who speak with such seeming knowledge and authority?

Listen!

I AM You, that part of you who IS and KNOWS;

WHO KNOWS ALL THINGS,

And always knew, and always was.

Yes, I AM You, Your SELF; that part of you who says I AM and is I AM;

That transcendent, innermost part of you which quickens within as you read, which responds to this My Word, which perceives Its Truth, which recognizes all Truth and discards all error wherever found. Not that part which has been feeding on error all these years.

For I AM your real Teacher, the only real one you will ever know, and the only MASTER;

I, your Divine SELF.

I, the I AM of you, bring to you this My Message, My living Word, as I have brought to you everything in life, be it book or "Master" to teach you that I and I alone, your own True Self, AM The Teacher for you, the only Teacher and the only God, Who is and always has been providing you not only with the Bread and Wine of Life, but with all things needed for your physical, mental and spiritual growth and sustenance.

Therefore that which appeals to YOU, as you read, is MY Message, spoken to your outer human consciousness from within, and is but a confirmation of that which the I AM of you always knew within, but had not yet translated in definite, tangible terms to your outer consciousness.

Likewise, all that ever appealed to You, coming from some outward expression, was but the confirmation of My Word already spoken within. The outward expression was the avenue or means I chose at the time through which to reach and impress your human or self consciousness.

I AM not your human mind, nor its child, the intellect. They are but the expression of your Being, as you are the expression of My Being; they are but phases of your human personality, as You are a phase of My Divine Impersonality.

Weigh and study carefully these words.

Rise up and free yourself now and for always from the domination of your personality, with its self-inflated and self-glorifying mind and intellect.

For your mind henceforth must be Your servant, and the intellect Your slave, if My Word is to penetrate to your Soul consciousness.

I AM come now to your Soul consciousness, which I have quickened expressly in preparation for the reception of My Word.

Now, if you are strong enough to bear it;

If you can put aside all your private personal fancies, beliefs and opinions, which are but the rubbish you have gathered from the dumping grounds of others;

If you are strong enough to cast them all away; --

Then My Word will be to you a source of endless Joy and Blessing.

Be prepared to have this personality of yours doubt My Word as you read It all along the way;

For its very life is threatened, and it knows it cannot live and thrive and longer dominate your thinking, your feelings, your going and coming, as of old, -- if you take My Word into your heart and permit It there to abide.

Yes, I AM come to you now,

To make you conscious of My Presence;

For I have likewise prepared your human mind so that it can, in a measure, comprehend the meaning of Me.

I have been with you always, but you did not know it.

I have purposely led you through the Wilderness of books and teaching, of religions and philosophies, keeping ever before your Soul's eye the vision of the Promised Land; feeding you with the manna of the Desert, that you might remember and value and long for the Bread of the Spirit.

Now I have brought you to the river Jordan that separates you from your Divine heritage.

Now the time has come for you consciously to know Me; the time has come for you to cross over into Canaan, the land of Milk and Honey.

Are you ready?

Do you want to go?

Then follow this My Word, which is the Ark of My Covenant, and you shall go over dry shod.


xoxoxo
love

sunflowerdagger

IF ONLY YOU KNEW WHY!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJyVouDLpJM



I HAVE A CASE OF PUMPKIN FEVER
NO ANTIBIOTICS PLEASE!


XOXO

There is life inside men and women.
Frozen babes.
We are born of a puzzle.
Into one as well.
Death brings us all together.

Ride the lies

Your an element, as am I.
With the earth,
We create the starry sky.
We are small, but endless.
Good men, bad...
all with a soul...

Ride the Tides

we collect unessacary debts.
to claim possesion and pride.
But we've created this.
so now its the only way we survive.


Ride the Tides

Wash your self down the drain.
swim back up.
save your self from drowing.
no one else can.
because if their smart
they'll save themselves.

Ride the Lies



Infinate

Fly with me
Far into the depths of infinity
Drape your secrets over my world
Let your burdens grace the walls of my soul
Your skin against mine
Love's touch divine
Come to forever with me
Ever ever is waiting
I'm alone, but never lonely
I'll wait for you to get here.
Could you hurry?
I'm yearning for the affection
that goes beyond touch.
Devotion.
Unconditional emotion.
I want Love.

forsaken stance
Love an endless dance
A collaboration of two souls
no secrets left untold
Once the truth comes out
You can quit pretending
rest your eyes
the lies are ending

isn't it a treat
that our enemies
will destroy themselves
we don't even have to lift a finger
We just have to last
we just have to be

our love meant to linger
I feel you most
when your away

Thats love in this modern day.

wows....
i just like the music.
simple enough?

A promise from across the sea
Look above
She's drowning
Our freedom is gasping for air
A kiss underwater
A fight
fair and square
These words might be the death of me
The old souls whisper
Beware!
I'm a frantic freedom seeker
I'm the mime
lazy on the couch
I am devoured by life
Liberated by death

Puddle

Fvck all your shallowness
How am I to explore a puddle?
Introduce me to the ocean
Let me live inside your sea
Puddles of love
shower down
Pick the pieces
Up off the ground
Swim in to fire
Desires contained
To the hour glass
of time.

LEARN LOVE

The jaguar claw
protection of one
temples of deep waters
No one told me,
"babe, don't you dive in too soon."
so now I tell you
To learn love
My heart removed from my pinned sleeve
Placed in a cage
scard from the cat
That lurks in the darkness
Fighting with the light
I run out of his nightmares
Away from the terrors
Back into myself
Down into the caverns
of my hopless endeavor



WHAT AM I?

What am I?
Not who,
I only keep you alive
To watch you suffer
Pleasure for my pain

Life is full of rivalry
and consists of constant games

Saying hello,
with departures in mind

Warming by the fire
To chill my soul
Theres a boulder in my stomach
Weighing on my nerves
Queens of affection
Kings of assasination
Prince of chivalry
Princess of the skies

The holes in which
You lay out your lives
I am only here
to destroy you
Only here to retain
take take take
I'm the man, I'm the snake

THE SERIES

If its any consolation
to your bare conscience
The trick of time is fair
Feelings indigenous to robots
Sometimes the sun
Sometimes the moon
Depends on the hour of day
Depends on the song
I sit and hope for
Spontaneous combustion
Underashes will I fall
crawling into nirvana
Like a leech
clung tight to the past
squeezing out any life
Like a child to a bear
The hero who pulled out my hair.



TO JUST KEEP

I wither in June
Just to wait for July
Says the voice muffled inside
I wait for you
Longing, craving
one day here
the next you dissappear
are you really all I've
convinced myself to believe?
Or have I wrapped my heart
around my eyes
Bloody blindfold
burning my sights
I am running
Toward you?
I can't be sure
Further I fell far away
Closer I'll stay
I am falling faster
riding the air?
Doesn't pass as flying
The harder I hit the ground
The softer you'll pick me up
Can't we make a true promise
just this once
One that doesn't fade with parting?
To just keep you with me
is a dream.

Tonight he builds walls
And infects his sight
with blindness

Tonight he weeps
as he keeps secrets to himself
with silence

He paints himself
his own memory of the past
detailed abtraction
of truth
Drenched in moldy fibs
of sweet lethal lies

Tonight he swims
Rides the alligator north
towards the moons

A child cut on the scales
of tricked magic
Rehearsed in his isolated hell
He can make the world dissapear
But mirrors reveal
In the flesh he is still here
He can't say the same for his soul
Its lifted
warmed, and chilled to the bone

Tonight he flies
On the wings of starved birds
into the atmosphere

He swerves in his path
folded to the nerves of a laugh
Standing shivers
of fright
Sprinkled with toppings
of dissolving smiles

Tonight he misses the sun
as it falls behind the horizon
with sacrifice

Tonight he caught of glisten of hope
that slipped into the darkness
of his eyelids shut tight.

I'am. Others are. The Earth is.

So shall the sun
Sunflower Bullets
Daggers and Guns



ps.

Who doesn't want to be taken under the warmth of another's wing? art thou too good for wings of an angel? To conceded to be naked and wrapped in their warmth. If so, you will never feel flight. Angels disquised as demons. Demons disquised as angels.
You Don't know some one. Untill you search through out their soul.

I stare down at the cement, drying, hardening around my feet. Almost as if in a trance. Like the couch dwellers, whose fat becomes but a cushion in the sofa. Step outside and feel the 80' degree breeze. Lay out after falling to your knees. I love children's smiles. But I only see them frown, Noah didn't save the dentures and now all the smiles will drown. Love isn't an excuse, some love a hamburger and fries. Some love the tube, that dishes out free salted lies. Admiration is such a belittling affair, braiding the devils thin, brittle hair. Lack of vocabulary, text message pride. Hiding deep in the chips of a cellular device. O' your waves, radioactive and fair, swarming the air. I guess we are all spread pretty thin. I call an eight hundred number and my energy hangs long distance. I am a telephone line, and quite the machine, I am a robot-human-being. When your it forever, you must keep both eyes closed and the third eye wide. Web time is high time, fine is the linen of your cloak, rough as bark that we skin from the trees. Your story cheesy as a corny joke, but entirely intriguing. You've got the whole world at the mercy of your barrel. Click Click Click. Just like the blink of an eye. If I was a fish, How would you catch me? If no bait aroused my crave of taste? Are we the fishes, or are we the sea men. Sailing off through waves, Poseidon, wake and calm the shores. Poseidon creep through the open doors. The confusion of perception, the perception of confusion. The confusion of the perception of confusion. On & on it goes. To all of the end. Dead dandelions give me wishes. I blow the seeds from the stem, on to the floor, plant rise, plants die, and wishes come more and more. They cancel each other out. The cords wrapped tightly around the roots, below the floor, into the rocks, far down to the core. The earth has an inner light. Why can't I.
You know our light is being consumed by a black tar called fright? One moment, to ponder a bit....No, I'm right. It might as well be out of our hands, no one wants to fight. You say a revolutions needed, Lets make a commercial and advertise SPRITE. Or How about coco puffs, or a cruise for two. Lets buy a good time, lets buy a meal, lets bargain a deal. Might as well sell your soul, because everything has a price, if all your going to do is get old. I Don't know the Boa well enough to ask if he wants to strangle you and hang you from the vine. But if it happens take a picture and show myspace photos of the good time. Popping eyes out of their sockets, to be sneaky and see what is coming from behind. Cruise control 100mph speed under the bridges. One by one they crumble, and by seconds you miss them fall. So ashamed, take me to the cliff so I can let go of the edge. Down into the fire flamed water. sprawled on the charcoal floor. The bitch comes out to spill her speech, "I am the black man, I am the white, I am the tan man, I am blue. Your No color at all so I'll be The pig queen of shit, mock and hang you. give you no breath, no reason to live." sad, sad, simply because she can. This bait will never lure me in. I Go to the Forest to lay in nature and cry. Its all for adrenaline, I'm not going to lie. Heart attack in a can, Cancer in a pack. Can you say population control. Is the prison hiring? FREE ROOM & BOARD, KILL FOR US, BE CONVICTED AND WE WILL SERVE YOU CAVIAR. WINK WINK, SECURITY SHRINKS....you will never escape as long as the atmosphere holds tight. Or you can purchase a used rocket from antique NASA.com
I'm serious, just a silly goose, who weaves flowers and grass, into a hefty, nifty noose.

Aching: The memory of you subsides
Churning: The Hate is on the rise
Belated and out dated
Forgotten: up in smoke
Mounds of books
Cheap show and tell
Choke: This is no joke
The hunters are on the prowel
The Hunted become a feast
Scars grace your new brow
Your soul: the monkeys' chow
Stripped: Like a poor man
Binded: Like a sick man
You degrade my health
With lies and sighs
Absent wealth
Stealthy tip toe
The invisible man
Watching you from a far
Shooting you from a high
With a target on our face
We Tremble
We shake
Aching:
Churning:
Forgotten:
A Choke:
Laugh it off sweet pea
The angels have coped
Now cuddle in their wings.
With mockery
Misfired desire
Shoot at disaster instead
My heart misgives me
The living seem dead
So with definate proof I sorrow
With insecurities I bellow
Rage:
And save regret
for a unobtainable tomorrow.
Both Worlds Are Closed.

Blue skies in June
The seeds dwell in youth
Your the light lamp
I am the moth
Attracted: a fool
Worn wings of maybes

I've heard the wind
as your whisper
Watched the sunset
Like your resting eyes
Dropped from the gallows
In your soul
Felt the darkness
as your disguise

Cockeyed babies
laying out on the stone
five o' clock at eight
when is our similar
waking
or dreaming state?

The saddening promise
The frightening hope
There's no fear
Just blind sight
Built bridges outside
Let them crumble
As long as I'm
isolated with you

As you fade to the stars
We'll go side by side
Death is the only way
We'll ever part
The only way for forever
to start

The world is getting high
sex waves goodbye to intellect
minds run dry
boxes full of white light

tended nature
ticketed forests
dead end trails
venture to the great divide

hypnotizing screens
above the baby's crib
winter weddings
of frost coated death

peeling the skin
of a petal fair
to insulate your cold skin
enter my mind
before my pussy

give the earth some time
to match the rotation of the sky
love has an attraction curse
love has a beautiful eye
love is tagged with a sufficent price
of maybes and whys and tries

Tangled in this mess
baby of the wires
baby of the trees
baby of thought
baby of the begining
What baby do we bear?

the future holds
fears
supressed sights
of midnight frights
baby baby baby
there is still good out there

cut out the beauty from the magazine of filth
paste them on your wall
an when the wolf start howling
know love is the strongest brick of all

The absence of clouds
makes pictures to
two lovers in love
me & you
And maybe birds do sing
at night
The city streets
overpowering their song
Maybe their is stars
during the day
just overpowered by
the sun

So make it
Live it
Break down the walls
These stalls divide
our hearts
They begin to wither
cuddle next to life
and hold time dear
become unsupressed
by all the
fears

If there was a way
to the unknown
would you really go?

If there was a way
to live with out
love
would you lock it out?

past the seas
of uncertainties
out the splintered
windows
above the buried
tres
And really...
upmost sincere...

If there was an
answer to it all
would you really
want me to share?




love

sunflowerdagger