i hear them coming
here starts the big parade
horses pounding the ground
rythmic beats from the center
it blooms red
next the drums the magnificant drums
a pitter patter of noise
tin roof noise
falling from the sky like
pain
out of sheer love for falling
i am lying on a bed of springs
in the wide open
its coming
light
light fills up the empty glass
and burns red hot through my vains.

you remind me of Spanish moss.
dangling so beautifully like tensile from my
old worn bones of arms.

your pretty, and they all love you
and so do I.
but you strangle my mind to destruction.

your so much like Spanish moss.
you choke at my roots,
tiny parasites are thoughts of you.

they eat away the surface then
leave the rest of my remains,
an aguey tendon.

Once a loved comrade
Is now a deadly betrayal
Eurymachus.

i know this girl that takes way too many pictures of herself.
she comes of vain but she's a little insecure.
i know this guy whose car drives me out of my mind,
it looks like a hearse.
I've been in it twice and it smells like stale cigarettes and the back of a theater.
i know this other guy that likes not wearing a shirt.
i wonder if he ever gets chilly.
i know this girl that doesn't eat.
does she know that that makes you fatter.
i know this boy that gotten expelled from more schools then i can count.
he still wants to inflict pain on others.
i know this girl that reads her bible at lunch every day.
she doesn't talk but just sits there and reads.
i wonder if she really trusts.
i know a girl that likes inflicting pain on herself.
but the funny thing is she does it to hurt other people.
i know this girl that cut her golden hair off.
her eyes look sad.
i know this boy that likes making people uncomfortable.
he hasn't spoken to me yet.
i know this other girl that sleeps around.
i think she just needs a hug.
i know this guy.
he has the most talent I've ever seen in a sole human being.
i know he's going far.
i know all these people but for some reason.
i cant find me?
but maybe its better to be lost
then to be stuck in a web of "knows"

i've decided to be a full blown pumpkin head.
went to the show.
touched billy corgan.
felt amazing.
decided to use the music as a muse.
and an escape.
other then that.
im new.
tell me what to do.