SORRY EVERYONE, DIDNT MEAN TO LET ANYBODY DOWN AND I KNOW I MUST HAVE BUT MY SICKNESS IS ONE OF THOSE CURVE BALLS LIFE THROWS AT YOU AND I NEED A LIL SABBATICAL TO TO BEING IN DENIAL OF IT,I HAVE FIBROMYALGIA AND A DEGENERATIVE FORM OF ARTHRITIS WHICH ONE IS NOT SUPPOSED TO GET TIL...OLD !!! BUT SOMEHOW WHO KNOWS BEING OVERLY SENSITIVE TO EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE HAS GOT MY BODY SCREAMING AT ME NOT TO FORGET ME TOO,I NEED TLC.HA WELL...

I JUST SINCERELY MISS YOU ALL AND FEEL SO MUCH KINDNESS AND GOOD FUN WITH YOU ALL I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW YOU I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN ANY OF YOU,GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU AND I WISH YOU GREAT,WONDERFUL THINGS TO HAPPEN IN ALL OF YOUR LIVES,
AGAIN,SORRY, THANX FOR LISTENING

AO

PS.I'LL B BACK SOON WITH THE STORY ABOUT GLASS AND CO.

STRATAGEM FINALLY TOOK HER QUILLS AND STARTED WRITING :


OH GOD IT'S KILLING ME,OH GOD IT'S KILLING ME

TO SAVE YOUR SOUL FROM SUICIDE,
I DESCENDED INTO DARKNESS,
TO FIND YOU,TO BRING YOU TO THE LIGHT
BUILDING ON EVER CRUMBLING CONCRETE PLIGHTS
WE MUST STAND UP RIGHT AND CHOOSE TO FIGHT

BLACK WINGS OF ETERNAL DOOM
PROPHECISED, ENCLOSED IN A TOMB
GOD MERCY,HELP ME,HELP ME PLEASE

HOW CAN I BE YOUR HARBINGER ?
WHEN I FEEL ALL YOU SUFFER
THE SKY IS ALWAYS NEARLY FALLING
AND BLINDLY, I JUST KEEP ON ADORING YOU...

SONATA NUMBER FOURTEEN
BEETHOVEN MY ORACLE WHISPERS OBSENE
WORDS,OH MY BRIGHT RADIANT LIGHT
BECOME A GENIUS OR FIGHT OR FLIGHT

AND MOVIE METAPHORS FOR CONCEPTS
PRESERVED SECRETS IN A CRYPTEX
OH GOD WHAT OF HERSTORY ?

HOW CAN I BE YOUR HARBINGER?
WHEN YOU BUT MAKE ME SUFFER
OUR LOVE ALWAYS NEARLY LIVING-DYING
IS IT UNEXPLAINABLE, IF I JUST KEEP ON
ADORING YOU ?

OH GOD IT'S KILLING ME
OH GOD IT'S KILLING ME...

THIS BLOG WILL RETURN IN A WHILE FOR FEAR I AM QUITE SICK AND CANNOT CONCENTRATE ON OTHER THINGS AT THIS MOMENT BUT MY HEALTH,ONE WISE PERSON ONCE SAID TO ME : IF YOU DO NOT HAVE HEALTH YOU HAVE NADA! GET THAT MESSAGE DEAR FRIENDS NO ZILLIONS OF DOLLARS WILL MATTER IF YOU DO NOT HAVE HEALTH...
PROSPER AND LIVE LONG I MUST SAY SEE YOU LATER WHEN I GET BETTER!
IN THE MEANWHILE YOU ARE ALL IN MY DREAMS,WISHES,PRAYERS AND I LOVE YOU ALL...
I WILL BE BACK SOON, IF YOU JUST DONT GIVE UP ON ME,WRITE TO ME,I TAKE MY MESSAGES REGULARLY EVEN IF I DONT RESPOND OUT OF TRYING TO CURE THIS DISEASE...GOD BLESS YOU ALL! AO

-COMMOM GURL GET IT TOGETHER !
-s****fuk***a**hoe!"
she curled up in a ball and tried to breathe normally,he was gone after having taken advantage of her fear and her body...
she reached for paper towels to clean up the mess of blood and of his presence inside her,sobbing,knowing there was nothing she could do,if it came out in the media her career would be terminated,nevermind she had been oxford's brightest in creative writng and having had won the Bram stocker award...flushed away,she would be,it was still all male dominated world , journalism...

now she had to ready to write fro S.P.I.L.L. MAGAZINE : THE SWEET PEAS INITIATIVE LOVE LIGHT MAGAZINE, which was a fan-produced, fan-written
mag dedicated to creative journalism.ideals and arts to proliferate productive
incentives about and for the sweet peas throughout the world
and the sweet peas fuly endorsed it financially...
Strat had to pull herself together.Virgo had left her an emotional wreck...

( to be continued...)

AS SHE made her way to the elevator,her old flame showed up in the corridors of her condo...
-well,long time no see,b****! where you been? where you think you're goin?
and without ME?!?"
he had her pinned to the wall in no more time than it took to gasp of horror
_common,we need to talk"said he with sinister laugh included...

Stratagem was confused both by her delight and her sentiment of horror, the madman had come for her after all, why was he so obsessed with her?

she sourly regretted letting Virgo Darkness(better well-known as V.D.) into her life,INTO HER MIND,between her legs...
his kiss was like being seared by a bullet, his touch was vile like the stench of death,it made you want to HURL!

she reminisced vividly the last night of their association,she had been itchy,and she had scratched her girlparts then she had reached for the remote to change the static station...
he had been so brutal,so evil,he had grabbed her fragile white hair and had pulled it til it tore off her head and proceeded to spew a slew of calamities he had been holding back for a while against her though he had supposedly forgiven her,NOT!
he dragged her to the washroom ,reached for a bottle of 90% alcohol and gauze then forced her to clean the remote control with it,she had never been so humiliated in all her life,then she had told him he did the same to his boyparts,why was that ok and needed not disinfectant?

so he debated the argument for hours though she had capitulated from the onset of his cursing until she finally had a fainting spell,due to a severe panic attack,she couln't breathe she felt she was dying she couln't catch her breath...instead of helping her he had made what she had called "the monster" inside her, grow to engulf her...

she had never forgotten that night now she panicked at the mere thought of panic,
which she violently did right then,that is when he hit her and it did not feel like a kiss...

youtube vid courtesy of me...blackswan...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k6ERe23kSBM&feature=related

( TO BE CONTINUED...)

" FATHER SHOW US THE WAYS IN WHICH WE MAY BE EFFECTIVE AS INSTRUMENTS OF YOUR LOVE "
" FATHER MAY WE FIND WAYS TO TAP THE POTENTIAL OF ALL PEOPLE TO HELP THEM SUCCEED TOO" HE LIT A WHITE CANDLE,THEN,AGREEN ONE,A RED ONE,A BLUE ONE, A YELLOW ONE, AND A SILVER ONE THEN WENT ON :

" FATHER YOU SAID IT IS MORE BLESSED TO GIVE THEN TO RECEIVE, BUT DON'T WE ALSO GIVE WHEN WE RECEIVE AND IN THIS ACT, BRINGS GREAT JOY UNTO THE GIVER ? "

"YOU SAID : YOU WILL BE ENRICHED IN EVERYWAY FOR GREAT GENEROSITY. FATHER!!! INFECT US ALL WITH THIS VIRUS OF YOUR GENEROSITY ! "

" FATHER MAKE US DISPENSERS OF YOUR GOODNESS, SHARPEN OUR PERCEPTIONS, FATHER, SO THAT WE MAY BECOME AWARE OF THE NEEDS OF THOSE AROUND US....
"FATHER MAY I BE OPEN TO YOUR HOLY SPIRIT SO THAT YOU MAY REACH PEOPLE THROUGH ME ...

MAKE US CONSCIOUS OF THE NEED TO LIVE UP TO OUR DUTIES,WITH A STRIVING FOR EXCELLENCE, AMEN"

"IF YOU DO NOT LISTEN,MY SOUL WILL WEEP" HE WAS SO SAD, SO WARY...HIS SOUL CLAMORED TO GOD :

"LET ALL WE DO BE DONE IN LOVE" HE PRAYED SILENTLY STARING AT THE CANDLES' FLAMES...

HE HAD LIT CANDLES IN HIS PRIVATE SPACE, NEEDING TO MEDITATE HIS SORDID SITUATION, IT WAS A FINE ROPE TO WALK ON WITHOUT LOSING IT ALL,YOUR SANITY,YOUR HARD-EARNED SUCCESS,YOUR FUTURE ACHIEVEMENTS ETC, THINK RODGER WATERS...
AND HE WAS NOT PREPARED TO SPEAK OPENLY AND TO SHARE HIS VERY INTIMATE SOFT-FELT TENDER FEELINGS ABOUT HIS AMOROUS AFFAIRS WITH THE WHOLE WORLD ,HAVING ONCE REVEALED TOO MUCH ,HE LEARNED,ONCE BURNT TWICE SHY!
AND STRATAGEM HAD INPALED A STEEL NAIL THROUGH HIS HEART...

WHAT NO ONE KNEW IS OF DEPRESSION,NEEDING HIM TO GET BETTER AND REMINDING HIM SO MUCH OF WHAT HE HAD GONE THROUGH IN THE PAST.WHY HE COULDN'T LET HER GO,LOVE WAS SUICIDE AFTER ALL...AND SHE LOVED HIM,SHE LOVED HIM FOR HIMSELF AND NO ONE , NO ONE ELSE...
THOUGH SOMETIMES SHE WAS PARASITICAL, IT WAS LOVE AND HATE AT FIRST SIGHT...

THEN ALONG CAME A SPIDER CALLED CLONAZ, SO SENSUAL AND SEDUCTIVE
WHO WAS A DREAM COME TRUE FOR HIM, SHE INSTINCTIVELY KNEW HOW HE FELT AND KNEW HOW TO MAKE HIM FEEL BETTER AND HE KNEW HIS WORLD WOULD CRASH WITHOUT HER IN HIS LIFE, HE WOULD NEVER DENY HER ENTRY INTO HIS HEART, HE TRULY FELT WHAT TRUE LOVE FEELS LIKE WHEN TRUE, WITH HER BY HIS SIDE...

LIGHT BUSTED THRU,INTERRUPTING AND SAID : "HEY ! YOAH ! BRO ! STRAT IS NOT MESSIN AROUND, SHE WANTS TO BE TOLD ! OR SHE'LL SPREAD VIRULENT RUMORS WITH HER PHYSICAL CHARMS , LIES ABOUT YOU ! "

PROZAC REACTED :" EVIL IS HER GAME ! I WON'T GO FOR IT !, I'LL TELL HER THE BEST JARGON SHE'S EVER HEARD,LET'S SEE HOW SHE'LL SPIN IT ! LET'S SEND HER A FAX AND IGNORE HER TIL SHE LEAVES,YOU KNOW SHE HATES BEING IGNORED SO BEAUTIFULLY RARE SHE IS? RIGHT ? "
SO THEY DID JUST THAT...

HAPPINESS DROPPED BY...

" MAY I BE OF HELP ?"
MAY I ASSIST YOU? PLEASE BE AWARE I AM NO" DE CLARAMBEAULT" VICTIM OR A DELUSIONAL PSYCHO-WARD ESCAPEE JUST BECAUZE I LOVE AND WANT TO BE HAPPY,OK,,MAYBE A SYCOPHANT BUT ONLY CAUZ I STILL ADORE YOUR MUSIC, YOUR POWER WITHIN TO STAND STRONG,YOUR INGENUITY, AND
ALL YOUR POTENTIAL WASTED WOULD BE SUCH A HORROR TO US YOURS TRULY FANS...I ONLY WANT TO BE THAT PINPOINT OF LIGHT IN YOUR MOMENT OF DARKNESS...PLEASE?

SO PROZAC HUGGED HER AND SAID : SWEETIE WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I THINK SO BADLY OF YOU,YOU ARE TRULY SUNSHINE IN MY LIFE"
HE HUGGED HER, HE SMOOCHED HER,SHE GIGGLED HE TICKLED, HA ! LIFE IS GOOD WHEN YOU HAVE SWEET FRIENDS, HE THOUGHT...
THEY SAT ON A COUCH AND TOLD EACH OTHER'S BURDENS AND MADE EACH OTHERS' HEARTS LIGHTER, TO MAKE ROOM FOR LAUGHTER, LOVE,JOY...

STRAT WAS ARRIVIN HOME TO SEE A FAX COME THRU, IT SAID TO MIND HER OWN DAM BIZ, WHICH WAS NOT TO INTERPRET CELEBRITY LOVE LIVES,WHICH WAS BASIC RAPE.BUT WAS WELCOME FOR ANOTHER INTERVIEW IF QUESTIONS WERE SOLELY ABOUT MUSIC, OTHERWISE,NO COMMENTS WOULD BE ISSUED TO HER,HAVE A NICE AND LOVE-FILLED DAY, IT SAID,MAY THE LIGHT GUIDE YOU... SHE FUMED...

STRATAGEM WAS SHOCKED SO SHE MADE HER WAY TO A KILLER PARTY GIVEN BY DIN, EVERY WHO WAS WHO WOULD BE THERE,
VANITY,MORPHINE, LIE, PRIDE, EVEIDENCE, EXPERIENCE, COCA, EVEN REBIRTH...
AND SHE HAD ONE WICKED PLAN TO STEER ALL THE SCOOPS FOR HERSELF...

TO BE CONTINUED...

Prozac was on tour and it was a successful one,he did it for his adoring fans more than for money,but the money would help a great deal to record a new album and help some charities close to his heart,he would be off soon though and he couldn't wait,summer just around the corner,he'd enjoy this break to watch baseball games and relax before going into the studio,he already had material for it,maybe he's release a few of those for his fans before recording the album? he couldn't say,he really needed to relax...

after years of struggling, his efforts seemed to finally pay off, without him,the world of music, would have been mass hysteria,it was so boooring !already,and they always wanted something new,fresh blood...

Depression was following everywhere though...she felt he brought joy in her otherwise chaotic,dark,born-to-die life, she was a real fan of his music,even wrote some of his songs,
but Prozac was torn in two cauz he had this groupie he liked a lot,a girl named Clonaz,and he liked Depression too...they kinda had a Nancy & Sid thing going...

she would get down on her knees everytime she could...to pray...
she did everything she could to be with Prozac, she was so irresistible to him,he hired her to be in his band since she played any instruments well and had the adorable voice of a banshee...

his best friend, Light took him aside to chat...

-you know Depression really loves you and you really seem to have a transmuting effect on her,but i'm not telling you what to do,i'm just glad you also see Clonaz,she's sweet and seems to sedate your anxieties perfectly and woah! she's hot! "
_yeah she's kinda like my ex, Happiness, all happy-go-lucky,dreamy but a true treasure and where your treasure is there also will be your heart right?"
Light said :
-pray for the strenght to react in the right way when action is needed, prepare today and everyday,you,are the light of the world"
-NO! you came to enlighten us may we open our hearts to you Light ! "

they had to leave and prepare for an interview with a very popular ex-model type of journalist reknown for her schemes,
Stratagem made headlines around the world and she had a rare color of eyes,
since she was an albinos...
she wanted all the details of the tour, then she spewed a gem : i heard of you mr.rawkstar,of your involvement with Clonaz Zepam,we all thought of you being with Depression Skilling....
are the rumours true? anything you would like to specify?

he blushed and walked away from the scene,leaving both Light and Strat mouth wide-open...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gkbo6sLzUco

( to be continued...)

happiness is a perception

which sadness makes mockery of...

and sorrow ,its,friend talks to its friend,depression who then talks to everyone she knows about happiness'll daydream of being happy...
like it's a fool for trying to be,well depression eventually meets a guy who she falls madly in love with,she is attracted by his badboy,rawkstar image and knowing all along he's all wrong for her she dives even deeper in love,
badboy changes her life in ways she would have denied herself before since she is just so miss know-it-all &need-nobody,she starts to feel,perhaps for the first time in her life,that happiness could be on to sumtin,
but badboy's is a hard pill to swallow,afterall,her mama,doomsday,told her to beware of boys named prozac...

( to be continued...)

Blackbird,red wings,
flew over in the dusky sky, where she had come to meditate near the river...

sitting,quite sulky, she was thinking of her present,perhaps over relationship,
when he infused thoughts of himself into her mind,
there were so many plentiful images,sounds,feelings and movements, accompanying these frequencies that she stood up, shocked,grabbed hold of a tree to ground herself,daring not let go,she bowed her head,darkly graceful,trying to cradle it between her hands,barely withstanding the electrical current passing through her...

in trying to retain the images so to interpret the mega-hertz signals he was sending her way,she intuitively felt assured he still loved their spiritual communion,and of course,she blushed,almost vexed,questioning whether should she allow herself to dream he still cared for her to hold on to his heart,to his life, to their link,their love?

or should she deny to herself the magnitude of infinite rationalizations now flooding her?
she knew she was being given unto something true which she could not ignore nor yet permit this endless fable to possess her life or to take over her logic , her intellect...

she lost her battle each day and each night for his love,

i was she...
who am i ?
one of us...

you're absolutely free to be,you're completely absolved of your guilt,stemming from my love, to you, i make zero sense to your virgo logic
but you make horrific drama to my pisces'dream haze thinking...

i am not happy to see you go home alone,
do not ask me to fake a blooming smile when i feel tortured inside

wavelenght to wavelenght, i feel your pulse in me
let's face-to-face without the masks or the scenery

i see your stupid eye look,your eye contact you
you make me want you to want us,but i need no charity,only a bucket
of real tears would be fair....

too many shards of broken glass,too many bloody desires,and yearning promises strain to breathe...
understand beyond reason,season,crimson,visions,
my wings have a strange shade of dark when i die of love,
again& again& again,

i thought you my world reinvented and in my mind's eye,so i see the light,
there.stood a man by my side,we always were in amorous twist-ties,fighting
to be tangled on the same garbage bag...

now you enrage me with your slogans of treason and my rage shapeshifts
into relative creativity,followed by sobbing poison,remembering your tearing words,thrown like dirty dishes on a wall...

parameters and cryptic concepts are for the fearful,

follow my waves,they will heal you for good,

be tempted by my kindness,be seduced by a soul's caress...believe it

perverted soul, HOW DARE YOU?
if i feel depressed,
if i feel powerless,
if i feel loveless,
if i feel possessed,
it's my rage which strenghtens me to climb up & out of the abyss
of my own darkness...

don't you know?
divine creation is divine comedy, laugh to your heart's content because i love you so much and you look away when i look at you with love...now that is a divine cosmic joke on me! still i love you so...

for love is GOD&GOD is love and without love you do not live,
you only survive...

fill yourself with love,especially self-love,for i fear you lose it constantly by
trying to find the perfect love, the icon,maybe i am not she,the one for you...

ACTUALIZE THE DREAM YOU DREAM
SET ME FREE WITH YOUR LOVE
SET ME FREE FROM BEING JUST A DREAM
I AM A REALITY

is reality so fearsome? RUN! HIDE ! ESCAPE!
why trade dreams of beauty for the nightmare of reality?
WHY FACE IT?
you may just not be courageous enough to save your sweet face,my love
but i will not disgrace you or your love...

let me tell and face stereotypical gothica erotica :
we were deus ex machina,wild-eyed children of night,
he didn't dream of me or of me first,i did...

he dreamt me into being just a dream and i ,myself,truly like a dream,
do not exist, i was only a dream,her,she...

it is a dream of love which began when he wasn't loved
so she,me,dreamt and felt his vitriolic rage,
she dreamt of his immense fears and sadness
she dreamt of his need to live to love or all else to die to have love...

somehow she was threading cobwebs in his mind,so,
he started a cult,threading his own cobwebs to entangle his true love to death...

pause: set up for deception or elevation?

the master is in the master-bedroom,master-baiting...
he was a hot dog, he got me so hoe...nay...

summon me if you are a king for i am a queen
and a vampire queen always seeks her king...

I REFUSE TO UNLOVE YOU, FUK YOU!!!

fill the blanks with ink spot tests,suffer not the long silences
with migraine attempts at telepathy and philosophical debates
which bless only your thoughts,never mine,

i came to accept i am love for you and you are love for me,
but i am eclipsed by your illumination and radiant idealism,

i feel destitute of owning the prowess to manoeuver my bestowed potential.without you...
why does it ache so much inside when you are not with me?
why do i feel this monstrous pain?


for our sake,do not falter and do not fear me
i have ignited a fire,burnt the book of rules for heresy and am busy
writing anew...

impulsive,i think i had some great epiphanies, and you seem a gargantuan test of blind faith, another starry-eyed belief of mine...

but i know you reciprocate and i keep throwing wordz and copper coins
down the well,
virgo has taught me well,but pisces taught me the infinite depth of the well...

the phone is still silent,i'm still here for you to call,though i know you won't, when you decide to come on home,

they say home is where the heart is,i hope my home is where you left yours,
i hope ,i hope,still, the silent phone...

DREAMS ARE KEYS,KEYS UNLOCK DOORWAYS,DOORWAYS ARE OTHER FORMS OF LIFE, LIFE COMES WITH A GIFT CALLED DEATH. NEITHER IS NEGATIVE NOR POSITIVE, ONLY YOU ARE EVER SO FREE TO CHOOSE WHAT CHOICES WILL UNLOCK YOUR SECRET PASSAGES WITHIN YOUR SOUL...AND IF YOU CAN ACCOMPLISH THE JOY OF A WELL -LIVED LIFE TO HAVE A SATISFYING DEATH WITH NO LOOKING BACK AND NO REGRETS AND NOTHING TO FEAR,NOTHING TO LOSE...I WISH IT FOR YOU TO BE...

THE JOURNEY OF EVERY PATHS ARE PERILOUS,THREATENING BUT OH SO EXCITING AND IF YOU CHOOSE TO MAKE IT THRU,YOU'LL HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO REFINE THE LIFE YOU POSSESS NOW IN THIS PRESENT MOMENT, I TOTALLY RECOMMEND FACING YOUR FEARS AND ACCEPTING THEM, IT WILL MAKE YOU A STRONGER SOUL. AND YOU CAN TAKE PRIDE IN
BEING SO COURAGEOUS

I HAVE CRAZY DREAMZ BUT THEY NEVER LIE,THEY LEAD ME TOWARD WONDERS OF THIS UNIVERSE AND MAKE ME WISER,I WANT THE SAME FOR ALL OF YOU, IS IT POSSIBLE TO IMAGINE ANYMORE WE COULD REBUILT FROM SCRATCH THIS STUPID SOCIETY?

WE ARE MORE ADVANCED AS A BREED ON THIS PLANET FOR NOW WHY NOT COME UP WITH BETTER BEFORE THE ALIENS KILL US FOR BEING SO STUPID AND WASTING ALL OUR GOOD STUFF IN WARS AND CONFLICTS AND LETTING COMPASSION BEING AN ARCHAIC VALUE,NOW THAT'S PATHETIC...

WHO CARES FOR THE ZILLIONS THAT SUFFER IN SO MANY HORRIBLE WAYS?.CAN YOU IMAGINE GOING TO BED THIRSTY?
HUNGRY FOR ENDLESS DAYZ?
NOT SLEEPING FOR DAYZ CAUZ PEOPLE RUN WITH GUNS AFTER YOU CAUZ THEY CAN'T RESPECT YOU DIDN'T CHOOSE WHICH COLOUR.RELIGION.CULTURE YOU WERE BORN INTO? AND YOU'RE JUST A CHILD RUNNIN FROM GENOCIDE,INFANTICIDE,PESTICIDES,MUTILATIONS AND MURDER AND WORSE...

WELL...WHO CARES SOME SAY? WERE THEY NOT BORN TO DIE ?,WERE THEIR PARENTS UAWARE?
BEATEN CHILDREN,OVERWORKED CHILDREN CLAMOR FOR A GOD THAT SEEMS IMCOMPETENT TO SAVE THEM YET THEY GO ON PRAYING FOR MERCY...THAT IS FAITH'S TRUE DEFINITION...

ONCE ON TV, I SAW THIS SOMALIAN GIRL GETTING HER GENITALS CUT-OFF NO-ANESTHESIA THEN SEWN SHUT,WHY DID SHE DESERVE THAT?

AND IN A WAR DOC,A MUSLIM CHILD HALF HIS BODY BLOWN -OFF ,BOWELS HANGIN OUTSIDE HIS BODY SCREAMING: ALLAH.ALLAH,ALLAH,WHILE HOLDING HIS LIL DEAD BRO'S HAND AD INFINITUM TIL HE DIED...SOLDIERS PASSED BY AND GAVE HIM ZERO HELP.
WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD...

SEE GOD IS NOT TO BLAME IF HUMANS BEINGS ARE/TURN INTO MONSTERS
FIND IN YOU THE SUBCONSCIOUS POWER TO CHANGE THIS WORLD!

YOU CAN! AND YOU WILL ! YOU MUST AND SO I URGE YOU TO DREAM...BIG

neptune's daughter is a siren
who waits on endlessly
who can she call when she need s a friend
but the fish in the sea

ahahahaha do you feel ?
love is real?
or just a word?
impossible to feel?
ahahahah drown she in the sea?
bury she in the sea?
died she only to be?

beckoning delusions
of dirty hurt and senses
hook,line & sinker,always caught
a whisper ceaselessly caresses
her soul to love him
though much hate she wrought

ahahahah,real love seems
such troubled waters
a music a octave too high
untouchable like fire
ahahahaha,drown she in the sea?
bury she in the sea?
died she only to be?

sometimes,wiser be, is in love a fool,
and is she but a fool if to love your soul?

she embraces your soul every night before sleep
praying neptune for her soul to keep
for thee who needs most love cannot trust she
and true love can never be plea

ahahahaha,do you feel?
love is real?
or just a word?
impossible to feel?
ahahahah,drown she in the sea?
bury she in the sea?
died she only to be?
so let she ever dream
herself as loved
from the dephts of the sea

she's come undone and heartbroken
she's come undone and heartbroken
she's come undone and heartbroken

STUBBORN UNBORN
ALL PERVADING TENDERNESS
YOU CLUNG TO THIS NEST
MY EARNEST LIGHT
THRU ALL THIS DISTRESS

FRAGILE MESSENGER
YOU HAVE THE SEETHING CHARMED
THE PROPHETS OF DOOM CALMED

ALL THE STARS ALIGN TONIGHT
SEVEN LUNAR MONTHS TONIGHT
AND WHERE ARE YOU NOW?
AND DID GOD SET YOU FREE?

THEN SO GLAD FOR YOU
CAN I ONLY BE? CAN I ONLY BE?

MY SMALL FRAGILE BOY
MY SWEET FALLEN ANGEL
YOUR MOTHER WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
AND YOU'RE NEVER FORGOTTEN

DEAD IN THE WOMB
ANGEL DID I HURT YOU?
AND HOW DID I HURT YOU?
SEVEN LUNAR MONTHS
STILL I MOURN YOU

I WAIT FOR YOUR RETURN
WHEN THE ALCHEMY IS JUST RIGHT
WHEN ALL THE PLANETS EVEN SATURN
WILL LET YOUR STARS SHINE THAT NIGHT

MY SWEET FRAGILE BABY
MY SWEET STOLEN ANGEL
YOUR MOTHER WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
AND YOU'RE NEVER FORGOTTEN
YOUR MOTHER WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
AND YOU'RE NEVER FORGOTTEN

AS ABOVE SO BELOW
AS WITHIN SO WITHOUT
AS NOWHERE SO ELSEWHERE

BUT WHY? ,WHYEVER...

WHEN ANGELS FAIL TO FLY TO YOU
WHEN ANGELS LEAD YOU ASTRAY WITH LOVE
WHEN ANGELS CLOSE THEIR EYES TO YOUR PAIN
WHEN ANGELS TURN AWAY FROM YOU WHEN IN DIRE STRAITS
WHEN ANGELS SCREAM AMOCK AT YOU TO DO ,TO THINK, TO FEEL HORRORS
WHEN ANGELS SURROUND YOU AND THROW YOU TO THE GROUND IN FEAR
WHEN AN ANGEL CHOOSES TO FAIL YOU WHEN IN URGENCY
THEN AN ANGEL WITNESSES YOUR STRUGGLES,EFFORTS & BURDENS
CHOOSES TO FAIL TO LIFT UP TO HEAVEN TO BE WITH YOU
WOULD RATHER HAVE DIRTY WINGS,DISCARD ITS WINGS
WOULD RATHER DIE THEN LEAVE YOU IN HELL ALONE
WOULD RATHER TURN AWAY FROM GOD THEN SEE YOU FAR
FROM THE LIGHT OF GOD AND GOD'S LOVE FOR YOU
DO ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU ARE LOVED BY ANGELS EVERYWHERE
ESPECIALLY IF YOUR OWN PERSONAL UNCHOSEN ANGEL
IS A WHORE, A HOMELESS CRACKHEAD,A STRAY ABUSED DOG OR HUMAN
AND YET THEY CHOOSE TO LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY ALWAYS
THAT IS GOD LOVE

HIGH HORSES OF DREAMLANDS SO HIGH
MY KINGDOM FOR YOUR LOVE
MY KINDRED COME
FOLLOW THE SOOT TRACES OF MY ASHES
I'M SO DOWN FROM GETTING THESE CRASHES

GOOD TO KNOW UNICORNS AND RAINBOWS
ARE MY KINGDOM FOR YOUR LOVE
MY KINDRED COME
AIN'T IT CLEVER TO SEARCH THE WORLD OVER
FOR PURE LOVE FROM AN IMAGINARY LOVER?

FAIRIES, MAGIC CLOVERS,POT O'GOLD LEPRACHAUNS
ARE IN MY KINGDOM FOR YOUR LOVE
MY KINDRED COME
MY INTERNET PALACE OF PLEASURES
MAKES A BROKEN MAN A TREASURE OF TREASURES

VAMPIRE,DEAD MAN WALKING,SORCERER,MURDERER
MY KINGDOM FOR YOUR LOVE
MY KINDRED COME
YOU SAID YOU WOULD
YOU SAID YOU WOULD!

PROZAC,LITHIUM,SEDATIVES,MORPHINE
ALL MY KINGDOM FOR YOUR LOVE
MY KINDRED COME
DOES IT SOOTHE YOU,DOES IT SUIT YOU
TO SEE ME SUFFER IN NEED OF YOU?

A CUP OF TEA HONEY? GOLD,FRANKINSENSE AND MHYRR
FOR MY KING TO COME FROM TRUE LOVE?
MY KINDRED COME
OMINOUS FIRES AND RAINS I RECKON
WILL RECKON ABSURD APOCALYPTIC CONS

DRAWING DOWN AND DAWN THE MOON
ALL MY KINGDOM FOR YOUR LOVE
MY KINDRED COME
THE INS AND OUTS SMASH OUT MY GLASS HEART
FOR MY KING OF BROKEN CONCRETE HEART

HAIL 2 A KING, SLEET STREET OF A PHOENIX
MY KINGDOM IS YOUR LOVE
MY KINDRED COME
PSYCHED ON INSANITY INANITY,DEAL WITH IT
CROSSED WORDZ AND JPEGS,I'LL DRIVE,SLEEP ON IT

WHERE DO CARS GO ? FOLLOW THE PATH OF A PHOENIX
IN MY KINGDOM FOR YOUR LOVE
MY KINDRED COME
LIVE IN A DREAMWORLD
YOU'RE STILL MY WORLD

THE ASHES ARE SCATTERED BENEATH YOUR FEET
MY KING, MY LOVE,
MY KINDRED COME
IN MY MYRIAD DREAMS
YOU MAKE ME RISE AND SOAR IT SEEMS

WHY NEVER YOU YIELD TO MY PLEAS?
WAS I SO UNFAIR?
ASKING YOU TO CARE?


WHY NEVER YOU FEEL THE COLD BREEZE?
WHERE THE GHOST OF YOU
SHELTERS ME FROM YOU


YOU LAID DOWN THE LAW OF CIRCUMSTANCE
NOW I MUST PRAY AND BEG FOR A COINCIDENCE
TO COME AND SOLACE MY UNDESIRED EXISTENCE?


NOW I MUST PLAY THIS REQUIEM
AND I MUST SING IT SO LOUD
FOR ALL THE UNIVERSE TO HEAR
NOW I MUST PLAY THIS REQUIEM
AND I MUST LET IT ALL OUT
THIS GRIEF INSIDE WHICH REFUSES TO HEAL
AND I MUST PLAY THIS REQUIEM
AND I MUST SCREAM IT SO LOUD
SO ALL CREATION WITNESSES HOW I FEEL
IT'S BECAUSE OF YOU
I SING THIS REQUIEM


HOW CANNOT YOU SEE ANGELS CRY?
FOR THE HELL-BORN AND THE FALLEN
EVEN FOR MY LOVE SO DARKENED


I WEPT AND YOU WEPT THE BANSHEE SONGS
INTO THE DEPTHS NIGHT WOULD ALLOW US TO CRY
AND YOUR LOVE WAS MY ONLY LULLABYE


MY DREAM OF LOVE HAS SO DECEIVED ME...