cannot wait until Saturday, November 15th!!! I have tickets for SP in Boston! Hell yes!!!
anyone else going to that show?

am ready for the weekend.

i'm so bored. i'm all alone for another week.

blah...

You are quite possibly the most beautiful creature
To ever roam this earth
You are so fvcking special
I can’t even find the words
I’m in a constant state of wonder
Daydreams fill my mind
My forbidden fantasy
You and I intertwined

Here I sit alone
In this cell
I suppose it is my own creation
My own private hell
I put on a happy face
I’m screaming on the inside
Can anyone hear me?
My God, why can’t anyone hear me?

My heart is cracking
My being is seeping out
There are so many holes
I’m almost empty.
Please fix me… can't you just fix me?
Oh God I’m so scared
It might be too late.
My emotions are dying, withering away
Will there be anything left?

Who is this person looking back at me in the mirror?
I don’t think I know her at all
Am I a ghost?
Am I really here?
My opinions aren’t mine
I’m left to think my thoughts in my head.

You’re the only one who can save me now
Will you come with me?
I need you there with me.
I want you to be the one to hold me.
Please keep me safe.
And mean it when you tell me things will be ok.
Just dig me a shallow grave
I will crawl inside
Curl up in a ball
And sleep for a long, long time.

I know there has to be something better than this. This emptiness inside me... sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep for a long, long time.

you found me
and i am drawn to you for reasons unknown
we both have happy lives at home
but i want to see you, to feel you
your pure perfection
i can't help but feel we have a connection
you fill my head with desire
you have taken over my dreams
could you be as amazing as you seem?

every night you come to me, in my dreams
this life we have, you and me
it is quiet, safe, and beautiful
our eyes meet, the sweetest gaze
we must have each other, there is no other way

i can feel your warmth
your hands on me
tongue on tongue
lips to lips
we start on this passionate trip
trembling, shaking, yearning, aching
slow and steady our bodies become one
with this sweet, sweet love
touch me
taste me
want me
need me

...but i know it can never be real
a beautiful mistake
sometimes life presents you with a chance you cannot take
in another life, perhaps, in another time
i know that i am yours and you are mine.

it is finally friday.

blah.

and i really want to hear G.L.O.W.!!

i'm feeling very blue.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2pfwY2TNehw

http://www.eyeblast.tv/Public/Video.aspx?rsrcID=2036

I am so excited for this weekend. My sister and her boyfriend are flying out here for a week. I have so many things I want to do and show them!! They have never been out East before, so this will be new to them. I only get to see my family once a year, so this is a real treat, as I am very close to my sister. Time passes so slowly sometimes...

i am so ready for the weekend...

ok so i know american idol is totally lame blah blah blah. but does anyone else think david cook is hot as fcuk? my god. he is one hottt mofo. hmm what i would do to him...

Vacation pics:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2081609&l=4172c&id=32308077

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2081625&l=1dd5c&id=32308077

Random pics:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2075644&l=1a03d&id=32308077

Back from vacation, back to reality... ugh!