This ones for you Alpha....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ERnT1X9HPw

come back to us real soon...

Much love to you!!!


ANYONE CAN CHANGE....WE ALL HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE...WE DON'T HAVE TO BE CONTROLLED BY ANYONE, OR ANYTHING...WE CAN BREAK FREE...



My flower pick for the day...

http://www.flickr.com/photos/norwegianmale/18588845/

My song for the day....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vgf0dmzEf0&feature=related


LOL

To ALL my friends out there...

Much love to YOU ALL...

Sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQZJXkh88oM

Hold me close
Feel the warmth of my soul...

wrap yourself around my heart
Don't ever let me go...

Love's sweet aroma fills the air
Lost in our world without a care...

City screams outside our door
Love me forever and ever more...

Oblivious to the world around
Only the depth of your love abound...

Like a beautiful flower, deep inside we've planted a seed
The warmth of your love grows inside of me...

It's all I need...




right now, this has taken over my being....


The Poetry of my Heart

Revealing now the poetry of my heart
Think birds in flight and you will start to come close
As faces come from the darkness familaiar
To greet you hello again
They pluck those strings and sing those refrains I know so well, and
hold so close
Now follow these birds faithfully, keeping those faces in mind
Over rivers and dales and soft greens until we come to the edge of
the vast ocean
The biggest sea you may imagine and more
Lift your hand and let those birds soar with this sweet music

Fast we fly over these waters
Faster and faster until we blur, and our words blur, and memories
of lost things blur too
The sun catches you flying
Imagine this from the perspective of the sun
Those birds and you moving the speed of light over the blue
Well, if you were the sun, you'd laugh too!
Finally, after such a momentous journey
You slow upon a deserted island, lush with life
And on its barren shore you find a worn sea chest
Polished smooth by years of coarse handling
Open that chest and you would find inside
A single valentine and the poetry of my heart
Dragging that sea chest around the bend
Thru sand into a jungle dense with flower and shade
We take the forgotten trail up the hillside
Up towards the laughing sun
Catching its wisdom as it's given
Past the ghost whispers and relics of another past
Climbing to the very top
Because time will not stand still for us
But it will pretend every once in a while
And up here, forgotten, is just you, me
One sea chest holding a single valentine and the poetry of our
hearts

A single bulb lights this room
It's dark in here all the time
If the ceiling had only captured my dreams and nightmares alike,
What stories it could show
She is here, the one
The one I love, desire, devise, rescue, all to my heart's own sorrow
I'm lost in this room, but this is the place the valentines are written
The site of my greatest thought and saddest song
There are no birds here to take flight
No oceans to fly over, no islands to reach
No sun to catch me crying
This is the gift of oblivion and opaque dance

Revealing now the poetry my own heart
its sorrow and the nameless wish I called bliss once
Stripped of its title and junked for show
The bulbs swing, the kids sing
The rooster crows and I seek sleep
Somewhere past the scars and empty cars and endless bars filled
with reminders
I want to climb from this hole
And dash myself upon the rocks below
But still it requires your push
Because a push requires intent
And intent requires desire
And desire registers in this body as need
Do you need me?
So push me over, my sea chest and me
The birds will follow me down

Retrace the steps, up to the ceiling
Back thru the bulb, into the electric wires
And out of Manhattan
Coming out another side
To a kid, a dream
A scrawled valentine with an x and o if truth be told
Revealing now the poetry of my heart
Rage and the canopies it paints
And the drawings it frames
And its real cage, me


Copyright © 2004 Billy Corgan

Desert Sky Big and Blue
Sun shining down on you
Birds singing fill the air
All this Beauty, can this be fair?

So many suffer and feel pain
So much sorrow, so much rain...

Enjoying this Sun i've been blessed
Still questions fill my chest..

GOD: what about all the rest?

Shouldn't the Sun shine on EVERYONE?

Feelings deep inside my being
strong, steadfast consume my soul...

Forever intoxicated by love's wine
drunk from the goblet of longing
sensual, seductive, pure...

Invisible to the touch
yet, so clearly seen and felt...

It envelops me...

I run and hide, yet cannot escape
struggling, it holds me down
helplessly, i await...

what shall become my fate?

Traveling the train of life we stop at different stations

Some good, some bad, tempting us along the way…

Seeing all the different sights helps us to realize what it is we desire, for if not experienced, we cannot decide in the proper light

We must make these stops to get to where we're meant…

What one does on the outside, does not dictate the purity of ones heart

And yours I know is TRUE

Found what I'd lost inside
My spirit has been purified
Take a thorn from my pride
And hand in hand we'll take a walk outside

Thank you for the sun the one that shines on everyone
Who feels love
Now there's a million years between my fantasies & fears
I feel love

I'm leaving all that I see
Now all my emotions fill the air I breath

Now you understand that this is not the promised land
They spoke of
There's nothing more to be
If you can be the remedy who heals love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uI7NhSoGUkU&feature=related


I love and miss you all!!! all of your msgs made my heart cry I am blessed to have such GREAT FRIENDS I have something i am working on and i will be back real soon...Promise...

I must leave this place for awhile... I am fine, and loving life as always I just have some things to work on...

I LOVE you ALL and will MISS you lots!

I wish YOU ALL the best of Days ahead...

As i part, i leave you with a couple of poems and songs...

I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them friends.

- Aizabel Parinas -


The Rainbow

The rainbow is a promise
That when the storm is done
A bright new day is dawning
And with it comes the sun

So when your path is dreary and
There's darkness all around
Clouds have covered up the sky
No happiness you've found


Remember with the rain and wind
God's tears, breath and love
He'll wipe away our sorrow
And when we look above

Into the heaven's tempest
We'll see and we will know
His promise kept thru tears and pain
A beautiful rainbow.

by Sharon Pickle


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jt35oAFIFpw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xc9ZbS4KMdg



PEACE AND BLESSINGS TO YOU ALL

LOVE ALWAYS
me
XOX