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Oct 15, 2008
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Why I'm A Fan
May 29, 2007, 10:01 pm - allimarie
This is not going to be very original...
But I'm a fan because I love the music.
The Smashing Pumpkins' songs touch something deep inside me that nothing else can - not nature, not words, not art, not other music - something beautiful and wistful, that I never knew existed until I heard certain music, and I realized that it is and always has been a part of me. I think I probably expressed this best one day when I was listening to "Mayonaise" like 40 times in a row, and I wrote the following:
"there are places i want to go, and people i want to meet, and feelings i want to feel. i want to take the time to learn it all. i want to savor it, i want to never leave. i want to know everyone, learn their habits and tastes, and then move on. but to assimilate them; take them with me. i want to know every road less traveled as well as the highways. i want to move in straight lines and veer off the path. i want to leave no stone unturned. i want to climb the mountain and share its view. i want to know the land that the artist paints, to know it in its entirety, and not as grass and mud and leaves. i want to live in every town, and feel the despair of every town's youth. i want to buy food at every baseball diamond. i want to see the sunset from the train tracks, i want to drive away in a pickup truck. i want to escape within a hair's breadth. i want to lie down barefoot with my face in the grass while a storm washes over me. i want to absorb every sadness, and to cry for it all. i want night to fall when i'm all alone and lonely. i want to breathe in the moonlit breeze and smell where i've been. i want to achieve, i want to succeed, i want to make a difference. i want to choose. i want to keep driving into the night. i want to pull off to the side of the road to take a picture with the largest thermometer in the world. i want to know every sadness and every triumph and still believe that it's worth it.
i want to know it all. i want to move on. i want to take it all with me. i want to answer only to myself. i want you to come with me. i want to be free. i want us to be free."
So yeah, that's why I'm a fan.
But I'm a fan because I love the music.
The Smashing Pumpkins' songs touch something deep inside me that nothing else can - not nature, not words, not art, not other music - something beautiful and wistful, that I never knew existed until I heard certain music, and I realized that it is and always has been a part of me. I think I probably expressed this best one day when I was listening to "Mayonaise" like 40 times in a row, and I wrote the following:
"there are places i want to go, and people i want to meet, and feelings i want to feel. i want to take the time to learn it all. i want to savor it, i want to never leave. i want to know everyone, learn their habits and tastes, and then move on. but to assimilate them; take them with me. i want to know every road less traveled as well as the highways. i want to move in straight lines and veer off the path. i want to leave no stone unturned. i want to climb the mountain and share its view. i want to know the land that the artist paints, to know it in its entirety, and not as grass and mud and leaves. i want to live in every town, and feel the despair of every town's youth. i want to buy food at every baseball diamond. i want to see the sunset from the train tracks, i want to drive away in a pickup truck. i want to escape within a hair's breadth. i want to lie down barefoot with my face in the grass while a storm washes over me. i want to absorb every sadness, and to cry for it all. i want night to fall when i'm all alone and lonely. i want to breathe in the moonlit breeze and smell where i've been. i want to achieve, i want to succeed, i want to make a difference. i want to choose. i want to keep driving into the night. i want to pull off to the side of the road to take a picture with the largest thermometer in the world. i want to know every sadness and every triumph and still believe that it's worth it.
i want to know it all. i want to move on. i want to take it all with me. i want to answer only to myself. i want you to come with me. i want to be free. i want us to be free."
So yeah, that's why I'm a fan.