I will try to explain why i´m a fan so here it goes:

I started to play bass after i got Mellon Collie and i make art because i´m musically frustrated, i always wanted to have a band and it never happened so i must let it all out in another artistic way. Sometimes people listened to a lot of music and find a couple of bands that are great, but sometimes some particular music just blows their minds to the point of blending their very souls with the songs.


This happened when i listened to SP. Something happened, something made a click and i got immediately hooked up on the music as if it was a drug, and i still do. Like when you taste something and you know you will try your best to get it over and over again for the pure pleasure, or when you see something and you will forever keep it in your mind.

I always wonder with my drawings if at some point one of them will cause a great effect or feeling on someone who knows where, and that idea is amazing, to now that i could touch somebody and connect with that person and be one every time he or she looks at it and have that feeling inside. I guess we all want to connect with people, to be listened, to be seen, to be hugged, kissed and be understood, and Billy wrote songs, plays them, sings them and i can hear him! i can listen to him clearly in my own way, and it causes me the most wide range of emotions, love, desperation, sadness and feel in love with beauty and love itself, the agonizing moments when you get lost or are left alone. I connected, i simply connected with their music, but the most amazing surprise came to me a few days ago when i listened for the first time to The future Embrace....


How terrible it is to practically fall in love with an idea, to a concept, to an image and with what you can find and see and listen, but not be able to grasp the source of all those wonderful sounds, melodies and feelings shaped into music. I´m in total awe. i want to be those songs, i want to be sound, i just want to let my heart and soul get carried away with it and never come back.




so.... well, i guess you got the idea a few paragraphs back. I´m extremely musically sensible, and i feel a desperation that thousands of people might be feeling when they connect too with BC music. I wish i could just sit and grab this man by the shoulders and just stare and stare and try to see beyond all the pictures, all the costumes, all the records, all the concerts, all the videos, posters, text.... to really see where all this wonderful sounds are coming from, to strip him from all the commercial armor and masks and fully contemplate his soul and understand the meaning of this human being and try to understand myself in the process.


Music is such a powerful energy, perhaps the most powerful, you can see what it does to people, how it can gather thousands in one place to connect with the bands and the people who brought all of them there. to connect and be one, to give and receive at the same time, to let things out and watch/feel the reactions, to know yourself through them......Magic.

And i will forever be... just another fan, silently observing how things unfold for this wonderful fountain of musical pleasure called Billy Corgan. I really wish him the best.