The Smashing Pumpkins have been my favorite band since I was a child. The first time I heard the band was when I was in the car with my father. The song, "1979" was playing and my father had it blasting. At the time the only band I was interested in were The Beatles. Though as I listened, this band, this sound intrigued me. I was drawn to the vocals imediately, knowing they were unique. Even at a young age I felt something in Billy's voice. I sensed his pain, his passion in what he was singing about. It really wasn't until I heard, "Today" a few weeks later that really got me hooked. I immediately bought Siamese Dream (my first Pumpkin album to own and personal favorite album) and got lost into the world of The Smashing Pumpkins. I purchased MCIS next of course, wanting to expand my CD collection. I tell ya, I played those CD's non stop.
Even at a young age, Billy's lyrics meant something to me. I know this sounds cliche, but the Pumpkins helped me through my late childhood and well into my teenage years. Instead of taking out my fustrations on violence or drugs, I just went to the Pumpkins. There music always made me happy, even if sometimes the subject material wasn't meant to make someone happy.
I remember reading through some books about the band. I grew more appreciation for who the band were individually. I also felt that Billy shared some of the same thoughts and pains that I did. I'm sure Billy connected to a lot of people and still is.